The days have been gray around here lately. June gloom is lingering this year. I find the sunshine really does enhance my mood and all this cloudiness is really bringing me down. My dad has started doing weirder things because of his dementia. Most recently he’s been throwing his daily pills into his glass of water so you have to monitor his every move from the moment you hand over his meds. I’m finding myself without any patience and wanting to get away from him. Working helps bring me up but the dark cloud hangs over me as soon as I walk in the door.
It’s a bad week this week and I’m not sure how to move through this funk. I am really hoping for a miracle and that somehow a room in assisted living will open and we can move on to the next chapter. Not quite the intro one would expect to introduce this fun and sweet family session but as I have made a promise to myself to bring a little more of myself into this blog, it is what it is.
My take away from this post is that I am lucky to have repeat clients. Clients that force me to work and to forget even if for a short while that this thing I have taken on isn’t the end of the world. These are the clients that remind me that I am still my own person and that I do have more to give outside of all this stuff with my dad. Thank goodness for these people.